memories

2006-08-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

hatred .. .. friends huh ? dont make me laugh .. just when u need them the most they will be no where to be found .. damn it ... feel so frustrated .. sigh .. sigh .. maths , physics = fail ... poly suck man .. zzz

2006-06-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i last blogged .. had my math paper today .. i screwed up totally .. just feel so useless .. simple questions also i got it wrongly .. was actually nervous .. well nvm .. i can only say i really screwed up my math paper .. i did it using my pencil then for the last 10minutes i read the instruction on the first page must be written in pen .. zzz i was like omg .. well i rush by writing over my answers in pen .. didnt had enough time .. sigh .. really screwed up the paper ..
well for the past few days i;ve been thinking if i should drop out from sch and head for NS .. cuz its like too many things ... now no one is tutoring me maths .. yesterday i had daniel and derek to teach me .. well i need to thank them .. if not for them i will not know some of the questions in the paper .. just that i;ve been thinking should i even be in a poly .. feel so usless ..
honestly really useless in many stuff .. many stuff .. sigh .. things haven't been going well for me for the past few days .. i know i'm whining .. well i cant help it as this is the only place i can do that .. so ya thats it ..

2006-06-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh sigh ~ i guess i lack something .. bla bla bla .. sigh .. as for now my mind is not at ease .... too many thoughts .... zzzzz ... well today i need to go out cuz of my friends birthday or else i would be at home all day ... -.- i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed time ............ aaa crap .. nevermind .. study week is here .. its for 2 weeks .. after that got common test .. aaaaaaaaa i;ve got to buck up .. neeeeeeeeed some time .. zzzz afraid i might flung the common test .. just that some stuff isnt going into my head ... cant concentrate .. screw chong .. -.- well its not his fault .. i was dumb enough to listen to him ... bla bla .. ~ well no mood to carry on .. end ...

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2006-06-02T07:06:00.000+08:00

bla bla ~ zzz fail my maths paper .. got 12 out of 30 .. badly done for my class test .. -.- no mood to even really study .. it would be great if i know something so i wont be so troubled .. sigh .. boring school, boring life .. zzz later then blog

2006-05-27T12:46:00.000+08:00

agkfgnkfnhdf;mhasdfsdfdsfsdfsfsfsghkjknh.................. i just feel so troubled .. dont know where to express it .. thats why i;m writing here .. told chong about it .. well he gave me positive points to cheer me up ..but i can;t help it .. its like against me all the times .. i am just tired with so many things in my mind .. studies and some other personal stuff .. i cant really concentrate with my studies .. just feel so troubled .........my mind is not at ease .. i'm such a failure .. never once i was successful .. i'm just disappointed .. i cant really say its jealousy ... i'm so dumb to get myself into this mess .. crap ... guess i gonna play bball at night to relax myself .. zzz its been a long time since i last played bball .. months ago .. zzzzzzzzzzz i just cant really help it .. feel so uneasy with certain stuff in my mind .. sigh .. zzz

2006-05-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

tired .. life is just getting boring .. sian .. math math math .. i'm so sick of math .. i wish someone who will help me .. some of my frens are busy with their sch stuff .. sigh .. screw my math lecturer .. teach like never teach ... zzzz even my classmates also have problem understanding his teaching method ... pretty stressed up ..i understand for my course i need math but why must we still learn physics .. -.- aaaaa.. sian .. well today met up Qi .. long time never meet him le .. hmm so met up with him and went to cwp cavana and talk talk talk .. we were catching up .. his life looks more fun compared to mine .. haha .. cool .. my goals this year is to pass all my module and aim to get 3points .. sigh with math and science ..its like too hard to achieve that point .. -.- .. to nyp .. i hate e learning .. :x

memories

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2006-04-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

well well been busy with sch .. didnt had the time to blog .. just reached home .. well today meet up with chong to study math .. hohoho .. we went to the library but no place to study it was packed so is mac .. we went to the food court and study maths there .. Lol .. we had our dinner there too .. so stress -.- we have to cope with math and physics .. from ite to poly ... wooo like very big jump .. :x well pretty tired ...i'm gonna sleeeeeeep ...story ended .. :D or dota later ... hahah release stress .. :x

bla

2006-04-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

well well i'm so happy i finally quit my job .. whahaa .. cuz its a sickening job .. well my working colleagues are friendly and good .. as for the captains .. there's 3 captain .. i'm not happy with one of the captain .. kitchen one .. -.- well he say things that hurt me on the second day of work .. well tolerate .. he say in chinese to a girl infront of me .. well i understand chinese .. he thought i dont know .. so he just kept saying .. i listen also sian .. well nvm about him .. he remind me of someone who is an idiot .. :x well gonna stop about work .. went to orchard with chong to play pool until 5 plus then went home .. a short day .. enjoyed playing pool .. haha cuz i lose alot of times .. thats all i guess .. my life is so boring .. -.-

zz

2006-03-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

well today just meet up with chong and mclin .. cuz no work today .. met mclin early as he wanted to pierce ear .. Lol .. well i joined him .. i pierce another 2 hole .. mclin pierce 1 hole .. haha .. my first piercing is when i was in sec 4 .. ooo we pierced at power 9 as x craft and 77street havent open .. pain sia -.- i dont think i felt this kind of pain when i first pierce .. first pierced at x craft .. think xcraft better .. :x well mclin was in pain also .. Lol .. after that met chong and we went to amk to play billard .. something different .. always play pool so this time play billard .. i always got last .. sad -.- .. well nvm .. today payed my bill .. i can call and sms already ...hohoho .. cuz my line got cut as i didnt pay the bill .. lazy ..after playing billard head back to cwp to look for ear stud ... and i dont know how i;m going to go work tomorrow .. -.- no earing allowed .. but the person who pierce for us say after a week then take out or change better ... well come to think of work tomorrow ..sibei sian .. sigh sigh .. -.-

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2006-03-20T16:48:00.000+08:00

oooooooo today and tomorrow is my off day .. kinda relaxing .. so glad to have my day off .. haha can rest .. well working is tiring and stressful when there are lots of customers coming in to eat .. aaa these customers all buay sian ar .. everyday also alot of ppl around 7 plus .. zzz sibei sian .. hmm plan to work for a month only .. as i start sch next month i guess .. after i get my pay then quit .. :x but dont know how to quit .. cuz its my fren who intro me the job .. well nvm that ... have been thinking about lots of stuff lately .. sigh .. well for now i just cant wait to start sch as i got something to do ...zzzzzz ending it

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2006-03-11T00:58:00.000+08:00

well today me , ben , chong and his sis went to watch movie and play pool ... hmm the movie we watch is the shaggy dog .. its a family show .. pretty okie .. got comedy .. after that i went for my job...ben intro me the job .. kinda tiring..... working at pepper lunch . .. well its my first time working .. first day of work starts at 5 end at 11pm .. late sia .. got alot of things to remember .. well i guess it takes time ... ppl there are quite friendly but one or two give me that type face .. see also sibei sian .. well today ben never work .. if he got work i no need to worry so much .. ben not there , i feel so out of place ... -.- well first day of work manage without ben .. cuz ben ask his fren to take care of me .. well its a long day for me i guess .. out in the morning enjoying ...work in afternoon till night .. well i'm ending it .. gonna sleep ..

tired`

2006-03-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

yawnnnnnnnnn..,... today is a tiring day... so sleepy -.- .. well yesterday went over to mclin house to ton .. i was awake all the time playing com and watching tv with mclin .. well we talk talk about life, our past and so on .. got alot of things to talk about with him .. haha the chinese variety is quite funny ... not bad .. haha .. hmm when its about 9am plus i decided to leave and head home .. while on train receive a sms from chong ask me to acc him go to his workplace to take pay then go town .. hmm i went back to woodland to meet him .. his last day of work today so he bought kfc family meal for his working mates ..once he gotten his cheque .. we went to town to play pool .. only the two of us .. well i've been losing all the way .. hmm lost 11 rounds .. i too lousy le .. sad ... hmm after that we just went to mac to eat and talk talk talk ..went home after that .. reach home at 7 plus .. slept until 10 plus nia -.- cuz of a fren who sms me wake me up .. :X .. well thats all i guess .. off~~

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2006-02-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

been really moodless for the past few days after getting to know something .. kinda hard for me to forget it .. sometimes i wonder who are my close frens and who are not .. my frens are limited ... a backstabber stabbing frens behind their backs .. a friend stabbing all the frens in the same group .. fren's girl also he want .. -.- .. the more i keep it to myself the more i feel so troubled ... told qi about it .. well actually she's got nothing to do with me anymore already .. just frens .. well i just cant face the fact that my fren backtstab me and my frens .. just because of girls he backstab .. wth man .. six years frens do this kind of stuff .. kinda hard to believe .. all he wants is lust and desperate for gf .. slowly find gf la .. zzzz use backstab methods to woo frens girl .. zzzzzzzz.. well we're planning to confront him some time soon .. i cant wait for that day .. he got to change .. sigh .. really no mood ... ending it ...

tired ~

2006-02-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

aaa today is valentines day .. no date sia sad .. :x well feel happy for those couples we;ve been seeing .. hmm good for them .. well today chong , bo xian and myself went to apply poly on valentines day .. Lol .. well its a tiring day .. cuz we went to four polys today .. crazy rite .. our first trip to sp ... reach there saw sotong and sharkiee... haha .. well the ppl at sp dont let us apply DAE .. i was like what the hell man .. suppose to apply for jpae but we want to put our first choice in nyp .. not sp .. sp too hiong le .. :X .. so dae cannot apply so we went to ngee ann .. there also the same thing .. cannot dae .. they ask us to apply jpae .. sian lor .. well what can we expect from the best two poly in sg .. sibei sian lor .. well after that went to tp .. at tp can apply for dae .. well at least good enough .. alot of ppl .. hmm after that bo xian need to go off cuz he meeting his frens for movie .. so left me and chong .. so we went to nyp to apply jpae .. hmm went there chong cannot apply .. cuz they say need 3.5 above .. but he already apply dae at nyp .. so still got hope for him .. hmm i;m a little worried .. if cannot go have to go ns sia .. -.- .. i dont want to go ns first .. well after all the poly stuff we went to cwp to rest ... very tired .. most of the time standing in mrt .. long trip .. so at cwp we went to cinema level .. sit there rest .. see alot of couples ... wooooooo.. haha envy alittle :x well after that went to chong house for awhile then play bball at marsiling cc .. only two of us .. then talk talk .. talk about life and so on .. then head home .. kinda tired .. watch anime first then i go sleep .. hai ..

lunar new year

2006-01-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

oooooo... just came back ... kinda tired .. went to my dad's relatives house .. wooo go there receive red packets .. song :x well every cny also go there .. hmm well after that my dad fetch me to marsiling .. he had something to do at there so i went along ... then i went to chong house .. we play mahjong .. Lol .. me , chong and his sis .. only win one round nia .. so sad :x chong win the most .. haha but we just bet small amount so nothing to worry about .. while at his house help him with his internet connection .. -.- his connection always got problem .. well had fun there .. good enough .. haha .. yet to count how much i got in the red packets :X hohohoho .. later then open .. bah ~ ending it ..

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2006-01-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

kinda tired .. been away from home for 2 nights .. -.- .. well finally back home .. got some things to be done .. i'm still jobless .. sian .. just noticed there's a backstabber in our group .. its so obvious ... we are just keeping quiet and see how long can this go on .. haha .. anyway i'll end it now ..tired .....

backkkkkkkkkk

2006-01-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

backkkkkk to blog once again .... aaaaa really need a job man .. so boring at home .. just came back from cg meeting .. feeling better ... hmm its a new start ... haha .. just feeling bad cuz told my fren i need a job , he got me a job at fulerton hotel ... only worked for a day then i quit :x .. actually i wanted to work the following but after i reach raffles place i cant find my way to the work place so i called my fren to ask for directions but someone picked up the phone and said u called the wrong number .. -.- i called the correct person but no response and so i give up .. and i dont have the fulerton hotel number or the supervisors number so i just went to look for chong .. just quit like that :X aaaaaa my hp bill expensive sia .. really need a job to cover up .. been spending money anyhow .. broke le :x .. well tomorrow meeting up a fren to go for a interview near my place which i think is better for me .. haha near .. what else can i ask for .. its good enough for me .. two things will me make happy for now .. getting a job and secondly get inside poly :X .. if get into poly i would be over the moon .. hahaha ... well ending it .....

friday ~ not sat ..

2005-09-17T00:42:00.000+08:00

hmm i feel like shutting down this blog .. its like no one is reading i suppose .. haha if there is someone reading it .. it can only be faz and her .. i dont know if she still got read or not .. well i'll see about it ~ as for today ... today's lesson cancel cuz we got a talk to attend .. bo liao .. talk about gpa point and further studies to poly or higher nitec ..hmm well after the talk went to meet chong then we head to cwp .. while on the mrt chong pass me a present for my bday .. he say its from da , mclin , ben , bo xian and him ... haha .. then we went to food court to eat .. and waited for qi to come there .. once qi reach the food court .. we talk for some time .. then he took out his tarot cards .. haha then he see my love life .. wah so true ~ so true ~ ~haha .. then after that they wanted to play pool .. i dont want .. i said i want to slack at food court .. then they say at least walk walk lor .. haha then i've got no choice but to walk .. walk for few rounds , da call and say he is going to meet us .. so we waited for him .. haha then see da , mclin and ben .. more ppl more fun .. keeping my mind occupied .. they all say play pool .. i'm outnumbered .. no choice again but got to play .. i guess it was luck today .. cuz i win most of the round .. and they change to nine ball .. i won the first round .. then lost the second .. as the other rounds i was in safe side no win no loss ... zzz .. after playing pool went back to food court cuz da , ben and mclin want to eat .. haha so accompany them .. hmm then mclin ask qi to look at his love life .. haha so true again .. Lol .. then procced to da .. his is really very true .. woah .. Lol ... as for ben okie lor .. as for chong .. qi is too tired to do the reading .. so next time for chong .. haha .. well after that as i was heading back .. i seem to feel like i forgot something .. and i lost my present .. put at food court .. forget take .. sian .. sad .. i feel bad about losing the present they gave me .. its like letting my frens down .. aaa .. regret .. i wasnt myself today afternoon .. left it like that -.- sian .. then i tell ben and mclin .. hmm they say nvm they pretend they didnt hear it .. haha ... even so i feel bad ... zzzz so careless of me .. i'm so dumb .. haizz .. so many things happen lately for me .. things never go right for me .. zzz .. after that play bball at night .. played with frustrations .. letting it out by playing .. haizz .. then went home after that ~ tired .. thats all ... i maybe will shut down my blog soon .. or maybe not .. see how it goes ~

slack ~~

2005-09-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

well finally updating my blog ..last week didnt had the mood to write .. just dont feel like updating ... well today is my bday .. actually i had forgotten that today is my bday until my fren sms and wish me then i know ... ~ .. well few frens sms me to wish and even try to cheer me up .. thanks alot .. i guess i need it ... my sister wrote me something trying to cheer me up .. haha .. well she understands me .. i'm lucky to have a sister .. we can share each other's stories and so on .. for today's lesson in sch .. i skip sw lesson and went for a lesson at 1 to 3 .. 2hrs only .. i have been sleeping in class for the past few days , dont feel like concentrating .. haha today go sch also sleep .. went to sch at 1 then my frens there wish me and bought me something .. i was kind of happy ... they remembered my bday and bought me presents .. they even advise me .. haha .. thanks for that too .. i guess i need some time ~ well even though it is my bday , it seems just like any other day to me .. frens ask me go out after sch ..but i never go .. i went home after sch ~ dont feel like going out .. just want to slack at home ~ reach home only sleep .. haha .. sleep sleep ~ well thats all i suppose ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

day day ~

2005-09-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

bah ~ lazy to write one but bunny force me one :x .. Lol .. nah .. well today is chong's birthday .. hohoho on teacher's day sia .. LoL .. well well his sis ask us to go out with him to orchard .. hmm me , ah ben , da and chong's sis .. hmm ben and da always late .. tsk tsk .. as always i reach woodland control station first then wait for chong and his sis for like 25 mins .. lucky it wasnt that long -.- .. well we went ahead without da and ben to eat .. after eating waited for ben and da .. once they reach orchard .. me and chong sis went to buy present for chong .. and ask chong to follow ah ben and da to taka to eat ... hmm his sis and i went to far east and bought him a shirt .. hmm newbie world one .. woo nice though .. well after that we went to look for ah ben and da .. haha .. they at pepper lunch having their meal .. hmm never tried eating at that place before .. wonder how it is ~ well nvm that .. hmm we hand over his gift to chong .. all four of us got him a t shirt as a gift .. hmm he seem happy .. hope he is okie with it .. hohoho .. well after that we went to heeren to walk walk .. as we walk around i bought something .. hehe .. bought it for someone .. i wanted to give today but i wasnt that prepared so i intend to give her tomorrow .. but but will i be able to make it ? hmm not sure .. well i'm gonna try .. hmm after buying the thing .. walk for few round then we head back to home .. i didnt went home .. i went to look for someone .. look for bunny .. Lol .. hmm she is working at west mall .... acc her for awhile .. and i saw her mom , didnt know she was bunny's mom .. omg -.- .. bunny could have told me earlier .. she didnt .. bad bunny :x later then she tell me .. zzz Lol .. ...bought rice from the stall she was working at .. hmm the rice taste pretty good .. .. hmm after that accompany bunny home ..bunny bunny ~ Lol .. then i head home ..
hohoho ~ tomorrow sch ~ sibei sian.. sch is so sian .. after sch better .. after sch need to go and disturb bunny le , thats my plan for tomorrow .. Lol .. hohohohoho :x ~ .. bah ~ not enough sleep for the past few days ~ tired .. thats all for now ~

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2005-08-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

hmm today just meet up with qi around 1 plus .. he was feeling down so accompany him .. after that call mcling and yuanda to join us .. haha force yuanda out ~ then we walk around cwp .. nothing to do so we went to play pool ~ haha .. played for few rounds .. the game was pretty good .. won few rounds by luck ..i'm lucky today .. hahaha :x .. i'm still a beginner ~ i want to improve ~~ qi wasnt bad for a first timer .. he's pretty good in it .. that was my second time playing pool .. yuanda and mclin played for quite a number of times le .. after that went to eat at food court ~ after eating .. mcling and yuanda went to play dota -.- .. left me and qi .. then acc qi take bus then i head to chong house .. cuz at night play bball .. today quite boring at bball court , little people only .. after playing mcling and yuanda came to bball court then we chit chat .. talk quit alot of stuff .. about past and now our daily life stuff ~ i also told them my existence meant a little to that person .. telling it out makes me feel better ~ share opinions .. hmm come to think of it i dotn know why i must try to go poly .. bah ~ so many things in mind unsolved ~ one day should talk to qi about it .. aaaa ~ feel so troubled ... bah ~ nvm ~~ i'll end this for now if not i will go on typing rubbish .. ~

backo ~ backo ~ backo ~

2005-08-20T19:11:00.000+08:00

I'm back ~ haha .. well i dont know whether there is any soul reading this .. well i'm just gonna update .. its been a long long time since i last updated .. woo pretty long i must say .. hmm my monitor got spoiled for some reason so didnt bother to get it done as soon as possible .. just told my mom she also never said anything about it .. so i didnt bother .. hmm soon i force my mom due to my projects ... i need a pc to do .. so now i've got my monitor .. backo ~ miss going online and of course my animes .. haha .. while i was without pc i seem to realise who were the frens who will at least sms or call me ... haha .. some never cared about my existence .. well i cannot be unreasonable cuz maybe some had their reasons as being busy with school work or stuff .. haiz life is just going on ~ some things kept inside of me left unsolved .. each time i would want to try letting it out but after reading some things it made me discouraged ... so i guess there's no hope .. so i gonna leave it the way it is ... cuz from the way i see my existence meant nothing much i guess .. i was never acknowledge in the first place .... so i'm gonna leave it the way it is .. hmm my buddy once told me to give up , i never listen .. haha .. i kept thinking i had a chance .. chance are like 0% .. Lol .. well had hoped .. no difference though .. it is just that i dont know what i lack .. guess looks or everything ? who knows ~ well nvm .. this is life i suppose .. haha .. hmm today is just another normal day ... just that i got my monitor today .. hmm downloading alot of songs and anime .. haha .. i've been outdated .. need to update myself .. haha .. well that is all i guess .. tata ~

initial D seems okie -.-

2005-07-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm been busy lately so never update my blog .. well been busy with school work .. lesson end late and i dont have time to update as i got lots of project to do .. headache -.- .... anyone good in networking ? i need a little help .. hehe .. well nvm that .. today went to watch initial d with my frens who are from my class ... hmm the movie isn't that bad , i like the races and love to see the car drift .. seems cool .. hmmm from my view i think edison is better than jay .. haha .. more cool i must say .. haha ... well after catching the movie , went over to jian ming house to kill time .. it was still early .. so we went over to his house chit chat and play daidee ... haha .. ying bin is the one who keeps losing .. LoL ... loser have to give cards .. everytime he give .. haha .. we played until 5 cuz ying bin had to go home early .. well after that i went over to woodlands to play bball .. but today very little people .. so we didnt play any match at all .. just shoot .. it was boring ..hmm call my dad to fetch me cuz it was pretty early , no match .. so sian .. -.- .. if got match i sure go home late , if thats the case then i will go home myself .. hmm i will stop here ..

sunday

2005-06-26T15:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm been moodless for the past few days , my hopes just blew off just in a minute after reading something so got no mood recently .... today is just another normal day .. nothing much to write though .. today morning woke up and went over to bo xian house to collect cd from him .. told him to help me burn anime bleach since my burner broke down .. after that i went to meet my godsis to pass her the cd .. while going there .. i took train .. while in train there was this grandma and grandson infront of me .. then this grandma told her grandson to behave himself or else this uncle will scold u .. hmm the uncle was refering to me .. -.- .. sad .. ppl call me uncle .. hai :x ...well after passing the cd to my godsis i went home .. see always nothing much to write de .. well i stop here for now ..

-sadness-

bah ~

2005-06-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

well today got nothing much to write .. woke up for sch early but i had stomach problem .. Lol .. so i skip sw lesson and went to sch at about 12 plus for another lesson till 3 .. haha .. i'm sick .. sad .. lol .. well today after lesson, my friends and i went to westmall to check the showtime and the price of the movie tickets to catch Initial D .. its an awesome anime so i guess the movie should be great too ..but the movie starts pretty late so we didnt catch that movie cause one of my fren had to go home early to entertain his relatives as for myself i'm broke :x .. haha i spent my money on a bicycle .. it cost me $250 .. hohoho .. so i got to wait for next month then i can spend .. hehe .. anyway this month is going to end soon .. after this month i'll catch that movie .. sad .. have to wait pretty long ... well i've got no choice but to wait .. haha .. .. well after checking the showtime we went home .. as always no ones at home , got nothing to eat .. haha only can slack .. hmm i think this is enough for today .. i'm off ..

-sadness-

Blogging is done finally .. Lol

2005-06-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

weeeeeee i have done my blog .. with some help from my frens like bunny and faz .. wahaha so happy .. thanks bunny and faz .. u guys are helpful :D ... well i need to sleep early , tomorrow sch .. well thats all for now .. my first post with blog done .. hohoho